Decided to try a self portrait, for my "About Me" section on the side there. Think I'll wait a bit before changing it to this though, so there isn't too much repetition. I like hats. =)

Car Lights

I sit in a LOT of traffic, so a way for me to pass the time nowadays is to look at car lights. Since I can really only see the back of cars, I go by those instead of the headlights. I love how cars are so unique, like humans, and manufacturers manage to make those lights look different every time! So I got inspired one day and started taking pictures of interesting looking tail lights, and I thought it would be a good exercise to base characters off of them.

I'm not too good at it yet, but I'll practice. I started off with a Honda Fit (my car!) and a Toyota Prius. I really need to get out of my anime box! This should help. I want to do at least 2 cars a day! Here's hoping.. haha. =)

I know they look pretty similar. That's because they're both squarey, hatchbackey looking cars! But maybe when I get better at this I'll redraw them. Since I know I could probably do better. I just wanted to make sure I did a drawing for the day and this is what came out!

Figure Drawing = UGH!

I know how important figure drawing is...which is why I am saying UGH because I SUCK at it! Granted I have never taken a figure drawing class (which I need...BADLY!!!), but I think I really need to practice it more frequently, since it really is the foundation for...uh...everything?! Haha. I hate myself for always wanting to take formal drawing classes but NEVER actually doing it. That has to change. In February. I really hope I am quick enough to enroll for Kevin Chen's analytical figure drawing at CDA. ;__; I REALLY hope so.

Anyways, these are healthy reminders to myself how much I SUCK at figure drawing and why I really need to keep at it. Don't stay in your comfort zone, right? =)

I got the posemaniacs app on my phone now! So YAY! That should help!

Briony

Sketch to color progress! I can't even remember the last time I colored anything...man. Must've been sometime in high school? Haha. I'm a little rusty so it's taking me forever...

Briony Lyre

Random Doodle

Final Cat Years Girl Design

Old Cat Years Designs

So for my last quarter of college, I did an animation independent study. I admit I was so busy at that point of my life that I didn't give my animation all the time it deserved...so once I learn more I want to redo it. Still, I think it makes sense to upload my designs from then. So I can see how much I improve in the years to come. =)

Looking at these old drawings...I realize I really need to use shape more. I always make everything look the same! That's my anime background for you I guess. =\ SIGH.

All Is Not Lost!

Wow. Looking back on this thing...I was in a really bad place then. Haha...anyways. Things have changed since! And with change comes inspiration! I am SO MOTIVATED to achieve my dreams! No more depressed Elora! O__O Time to work hard! The first step is getting this blog moving again =) Well... it was never really moving so...time to actually put it to use! I hope, hope, HOPE I can keep this up....

WHY?!

I want to be a character designer/animator so bad. But why can't I ever seem to jump on the train that moves toward those goals? I keep getting stuck in WoW. Ugh. I am an awful person. I have so many dreams that I somehow fail at moving forward... why?

I Really Need An Outlet

I feel like I need a place to vent, and a place to document. I would love somewhere to look back years from now and be like "Oh hey, look at how I was and look where I am now! I've really evolved!" Or so I hope. Right now I'm not in too good of a place. It's 3AM and I told myself I would sleep hours ago, but just like so many other things in my life...that didn't go as planned.

I am full of regret and hatred right now, and I have no idea how to fix it. I have so much hatred for myself, for so many reasons. I have no problem hurting those I feel deserve it, but if you're a friend, or a friend of a friend, or a genuinely good person who I like and admire...I just feel ashamed if I say something hurtful. And then even if it's really okay...it's so hard for me to get past. You see, I hold grudges. Grudges against myself that take a while to get over. That's probably why I have so much self loathing. And right now...the self loathing is starting to take over I think, and seep into the loathing of others as well, and even just life itself. Who wants to be around such a huge ball of depression? I know I don't! Ugh.

There are so many things I want to say right now, and I contemplate saying them on the internet for people to stumble across.

Today I almost collided with these two guys eating cheeseburgers and was super pissed. Lately I've been getting angry and almost getting into an accident every time I'm on the road. I'm not sure if this is a problem with me, or just rush hour. Also, I've been finding that I really do not care for the general human population. Again, is that my problem? How do I fix it? What do I do when I have so much hate for pretty much EVERYTHING that I can't even really hang out with people anymore? When did this happen? And why is there an attitude attached to my voice every time I talk? It disgusts me.

I'm tired.